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This blog was originally published on, a website owned by Clair Fisher.

In Clair’s words: “Dying Well was my retirement project. A space for me to document my personal journey, to explore the evidence around wellbeing in terminal illness and test out some of the theories.”

My first job was in the stock room of Freeman Hardy and Willis (a now defunct shoe retailer). I was 13 and had trawled round collecting application forms from all the shops in our town after school, completely on my own initiative. My motivation at the time was to get some money together for a pair of Cherry Red Doctor Martens. I have worked every since. A variety of shop jobs through school and college, then various factory temp jobs and call centres saw me through my university years. I joined the Civil Service graduate scheme and then set up my own training and consultancy business.

I was working overseas in November 2018 when I first got sick. Making my apologies to my client, I was taken to hospital with severe abdominal pain, where I underwent emergency surgery and then was flown home to recover. I had a few weeks off, and then when I was ‘better’ I went back to work. Except I wasn’t really better. The diagnosis was stage 4 bowel cancer and this was just the beginning of a journey of palliative treatment that has so far included 3 major surgeries and 4 rounds of chemotherapy.

I don’t really think I ever made a decision about whether I would keep working or not. There were commitments in my diary and I just didn’t want to let people down, so I kept going. Only a very few people knew that I had cancer, and most of them I think presumed that the treatment would make me better.

Because I run my own company and have control over my own diary I have been very fortunate in being able to plan work around my treatment. I pioneered remote working way before COVID made it cool, and my oncology team joke about how I come to all the meetings with my diary!

There are definitely times when I’ve pushed myself too far; continuing to commute when I felt so sick and tired with chemo, or struggling with my luggage after surgery. Managing a stoma in a corporate environment was also tough – disabled toilets normally locked and inaccessible to people that didn’t fit their stereotype of people who should have access. While I’ve sometimes been surprised by the kindness of strangers, I’ve also sadly found that people are pretty unsympathetic if you look like you should be fit and well.

But mostly my work has been a lifeline. There’s been a liberty in being in company with people who don’t know I’m sick. I’ve loved having intelligent conversations, feeling valued and appreciated. Being able to contribute something of value to others has been so important. Financially it’s also made sense for me to keep working, and I think my family have found it reassuring to see me doing normal things. At a very basic level it’s been helpful having things in the diary and a reason to get out of bed and move forward. Knowing I have a terminal illness has changed the way I prioritise the work that I do; I’ve enjoyed seeing projects through to completion and investing time in developing others.

So it is with some sadness and trepidation that I admit that I’m retiring in 2021. As a long time associate of the What Works Centre for Wellbeing, I’ve begun a retirement project ‘Dying Well’ to explore Wellbeing in terminal illness.

This world cancer day I will be supporting the Civil Service working through cancer network as they consider how best to support those living with terminal illness and encourage more Government Departments to sign up to the TUC ‘Dying to Work’ charter.

Being employed is a really key part of personal Wellbeing and it is often also the link to other things that really matter: our sense of purpose, financial security and personal relationships. We know that how we feel about our health is as important as how healthy we are; and so when our health forces us to make unwelcome decisions about work it can be really difficult to manage.

I feel very lucky to have be able to continue to work as long as I wanted to. If you are looking for help in this area, I recommend the resources on the Marie Curie website.

This blog was first published on Chris’s Cancer Community. I’m grateful to Chris Lewis for giving me the chance to tell my story to a wider audience as part of raising awareness of people with terminal illness in the workplace.

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